The other day I had one of those days that could quite easily have turned into one of ‘those’ days! It started at 2.30am when my daughter’s mobile phone alarm went off and of course the whole house slept through it, except me! It continued until I eventually gave in and got up to turn it off which had the unfortunate consequence of me then not being able to go to sleep. I don’t know about you but you end up thinking about the most random of things at 3am in the morning and no matter what I tried, I was awake. Until I eventually dropped off at about 5.30am only to be woken up at 6.30am by her ‘wake up for school’ alarm – except it was Bank Holiday Monday!!!
Now I’m not ashamed to say that for the ‘old’ me this would have ruined the entire day, a day that we had planned to enjoy, we were set to enjoy our village sports day, my 80 year young mother was staying and I wanted to spend some time with her. However, having no sleep would have set the tone for the entire day and it would have impacted on all of those things, I would have been grumpy, fed up, cross and I would have been counting down the hours until I could go back to bed.
It’s so easy isn’t it for your day to just get off on the wrong foot? It’s like the saying ‘you’ve got out of bed the wrong side’ is completely right in that the day is a complete right off and you won’t be reset until you get up the next day on the right side of the bed! But of course it only seems like that, it only seems like we have no choice in the matter, like our day has now been mapped out for us and we are merely spectators that have to wait until the day to end.
You may be surprised to know that, my thinking was a lot like the weather on Bank Holiday Monday, dismal, cloudy and quite wet, it’s not that I wasn’t thinking tired, grumpy, fed up or even cross thoughts (I am human after all), they just pop in with no effort required on my part at all and in fact I find that the more I try to block them or replace them with ‘happy’ ‘positive’ thoughts they become even more stubborn. So how did I manage not to have one of those days? In fact we had a lovely day – despite the actual weather!
In many ways I have become an expert weather watcher, you know when you look out of the window and look at the weather, you may notice the clouds, notice that they come in all different shapes and sizes, you can watch how they move across the sky with no effort required on your part. You’re not outside or even part of the weather, you just watch it, through the window – that way, when it rains you don’t get wet.
Bad day, grumpy, thinking can be a lot like those dark, dismal, rainy clouds but I know, like real clouds, if I give myself a little time, I can just observe them, know that they are there and know that they pass by without any effort from me at all. When I do this, I go back to feeling ok, the grumpy feelings pass, I can focus on how I really want feel and can enjoy the day, moment to moment, allowing it to pan out in exactly the way that I wanted it to. However, I confess, I did squeeze in a little Nanna nap in the afternoon!